Lelouch just . . . likes Oz? Oz is really easy to be fond of. He has the combination of playfulness and depth that Lelouch is attracted to. All the stuff with Gil coming back was just handled so well on Oz's part (encouraging Lelouch to confess!) that Lelouch just immediately became drawn to him. Lelouch also just . . . sorely needs a normal friend, a person he can trust that can stand their own against him and are not all fucked up on Geass or too overwhelmed with their own issues.
They also both have an extremely similar fear of rejection, h-hence the ridiculous feelings chicken, yeah. It is SO HARD for Lelouch to push past his self-hate/rejection fear with people that he doesn't know well. So Oz is in this weird place where he's won a lot of trust, physical affection, etc, but hasn't . . . actually broken down the barriers one has to get past with Lelouch in order to get there. So Lelouch is kind of uneasy and terrified and off-balance, even while he is just genuinely happy with sort of a bizarre/normal relationship.
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Lelouch just . . . likes Oz? Oz is really easy to be fond of. He has the combination of playfulness and depth that Lelouch is attracted to. All the stuff with Gil coming back was just handled so well on Oz's part (encouraging Lelouch to confess!) that Lelouch just immediately became drawn to him. Lelouch also just . . . sorely needs a normal friend, a person he can trust that can stand their own against him and are not all fucked up on Geass or too overwhelmed with their own issues.
They also both have an extremely similar fear of rejection, h-hence the ridiculous feelings chicken, yeah. It is SO HARD for Lelouch to push past his self-hate/rejection fear with people that he doesn't know well. So Oz is in this weird place where he's won a lot of trust, physical affection, etc, but hasn't . . . actually broken down the barriers one has to get past with Lelouch in order to get there. So Lelouch is kind of uneasy and terrified and off-balance, even while he is just genuinely happy with sort of a bizarre/normal relationship.